Doesn't the title say it all?!
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Saturday, December 12, 2009
Alive once again...
It's been a while since I last updated my blog...hur.hur...
Do you like my plain white? Me still thinking of what design to put up...hurhur...better wait till my hectic schedule relaxes a bit...
...meanwhile, here's a pic of me not doing my bookkeeping homework!!!
Do you like my plain white? Me still thinking of what design to put up...hurhur...better wait till my hectic schedule relaxes a bit...
...meanwhile, here's a pic of me not doing my bookkeeping homework!!!
Friday, October 23, 2009
I not here no more.
huuu. I not do blogging here no more. huuuuuuuuu.
Eh. I seem to prefer tumblr nowadays.....or, good old one liner blogs...yes, your day in one sentence!
Oh my golly. Exam week has been so terrible. I swear, I actually believe that I'm getting a failure...or something close to it. That is not an exaggeration! I bid my dreams of getting accepted to my dream school goodbye. Oh well. C'est la vie. Now, I just remembered Mrs. B. ahahaha.
Now, I feel like I'm getting fat. ho ho ho. No surprise there. I've been pigging out for the past couple of weeks. Seriously, what happened to the eating disorder-prone girl I knew? *sigh* I wish I could go back...wait...I can! Hah! Starting now, I'm going to kiss one of life's unquestionable pleasures, goodbye. Sundae Mcdo...I'll miss you soooo...........
I should go back to studying and quit obsessing about my weight .......haiiiiiii
Eh. I seem to prefer tumblr nowadays.....or, good old one liner blogs...yes, your day in one sentence!
Oh my golly. Exam week has been so terrible. I swear, I actually believe that I'm getting a failure...or something close to it. That is not an exaggeration! I bid my dreams of getting accepted to my dream school goodbye. Oh well. C'est la vie. Now, I just remembered Mrs. B. ahahaha.
Now, I feel like I'm getting fat. ho ho ho. No surprise there. I've been pigging out for the past couple of weeks. Seriously, what happened to the eating disorder-prone girl I knew? *sigh* I wish I could go back...wait...I can! Hah! Starting now, I'm going to kiss one of life's unquestionable pleasures, goodbye. Sundae Mcdo...I'll miss you soooo...........
I should go back to studying and quit obsessing about my weight .......haiiiiiii
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
There is no "we" in "I", only "me".
Physics class:
As I jot down equations and draw tiny cars on my notebook, I'm fighting my very hardest NOT to fall asleep. Alas, next thing I knew, I was called to the board to answer an equation. By now, you should have guessed what happened.
Tough luck? Ain't it?
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*sigh*
I realized that there are a number of things in which I don't believe in anymore. One, I don't believe I could stand a whole day of school without sleeping in at least one class. Second, there is no such thing as true anymore. It's all false.
Yep, false.
False eyes, false hair, false teeth.
Nothing is what it seems.
You'd have to be stupid like me to easily believe in things.
DON'T.
It's like a sandcastle in a beach being washed away in which you actually believed that the sandcastle would still stand. It may look strong with the walls around it, perhaps it's even encircled with stones. Giving you some sort of FALSE hope that it wouldn't wash away. How stupid. Duh, it would be washed away of course. Yet, you still believed it would stand. That's even more stupid.
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cut-erase-delete-refresh...refresh...refresh...
-memory deleted and is now replaced with a better hard drive that has better anti-virus programs-
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Trust no one, deceive everyone?
As I jot down equations and draw tiny cars on my notebook, I'm fighting my very hardest NOT to fall asleep. Alas, next thing I knew, I was called to the board to answer an equation. By now, you should have guessed what happened.
Tough luck? Ain't it?
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*sigh*
I realized that there are a number of things in which I don't believe in anymore. One, I don't believe I could stand a whole day of school without sleeping in at least one class. Second, there is no such thing as true anymore. It's all false.
Yep, false.
False eyes, false hair, false teeth.
Nothing is what it seems.
You'd have to be stupid like me to easily believe in things.
DON'T.
It's like a sandcastle in a beach being washed away in which you actually believed that the sandcastle would still stand. It may look strong with the walls around it, perhaps it's even encircled with stones. Giving you some sort of FALSE hope that it wouldn't wash away. How stupid. Duh, it would be washed away of course. Yet, you still believed it would stand. That's even more stupid.
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cut-erase-delete-refresh...refresh...refresh...
-memory deleted and is now replaced with a better hard drive that has better anti-virus programs-
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Trust no one, deceive everyone?
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Interesting Conversation.
NTERESTING CONVERSATION
An Atheist Professor of Philosophy speaks to his Class on the Problem Science has with GOD, the ALMIGHTY.
He asks one of his New Christian Students to stand and . . .
Professor : You are a Christian, aren't you, son ?
Student : Yes, sir.
Professor : So you Believe in GOD ?
Student : Absolutely, sir.
Professor : Is GOD Good ?
Student : Sure.
Professor : Is GOD ALL - POWERFUL ?
Student : Yes.
Professor : My Brother died of Cancer even though he Prayed to GOD to Heal him.
Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill.
But GOD didn't.
How is this GOD good then? Hmm?
( Student is silent )
Professor : You can't answer, can you ?
Let's start again, Young Fella.
Is GOD Good?
Student : Yes.
Professor : Is Satan good ?
Student : No.
Professor : Where does Satan come from ?
Student : From . . . GOD . . .
Professor : That's right.
Tell me son, is there evil in this World?
Student : Yes.
Professor : Evil is everywhere, isn't it ?
And GOD did make everything. Correct?
Student : Yes.
Professor : So who created evil ?
(Student does not answer)
Professor : Is there Sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness?
All these terrible things exist in the World, don't they?
Student : Yes, sir.
Professor : So, who Created them ?
( Student has no answer )
Professor : Science says you have 5 Senses you use to Identify and Observe the World around you.
Tell me, son . . . Have you ever Seen GOD?
Student : No, sir.
Professor : Tell us if you have ever Heard your GOD?
Student : No , sir.
Professor : Have you ever Felt your GOD, Tasted your GOD, Smelt your GOD?
Have you ever had any Sensory Perception of GOD for that matter?
Student : No, sir. I'm afraid I haven't.
Professor : Yet you still Believe in HIM?
Student : Yes.
Professor : According to Empirical, Testable, Demonstrable Protocol, Science says your GOD doesn't exist.
What do you say to that, son?
Student : Nothing. I only have my Faith.
Professor : Yes, Faith. And that is the Problem Science has.
Student : Professor, is there such a thing as Heat?
Professor : Yes.
Student : And is there such a thing as Cold?
Professor : Yes.
Student : No sir. There isn't..
( The Lecture Theatre becomes very quiet with this turn of events )
Student : Sir, you can have Lots of Heat, even More Heat, Superheat, Mega Heat,
White Heat, a Little Heat or No Heat...
But we don't have anything called Cold.
We can hit 458 Degrees below Zero which is No Heat,
but we can't go any further after that.
There is no such thing as Cold.
Cold is only a Word we use to describe the Absence of Heat.
We cannot Measure Cold.
Heat is Energy.
Cold is Not the Opposite of Heat, sir, just the Absence of it.
( There is Pin - Drop Silence in the Lecture Theatre )
Student : What about Darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as Darkness?
Professor : Yes. What is Night if there isn't Darkness?
Student : You're wrong again, sir..
Darkness is the Absence of Something�K
You can have Low Light, Normal Light, Bright Light, Flashing Light . . .
But if you have No Light constantly, you have nothing and its called
Darkness, isn't it? In reality, Darkness isn't.
If it is, were you would be able to make Darkness Darker, wouldn't you?
Professor : So what is the point you are making, Young Man ?
Student : Sir, my point is your Philosophical Premise is flawed.
Professor : Flawed ? Can you explain how?
Student : Sir, you are working on the Premise of Duality.
You argue there is Life and then there is Death,
a Good GOD and a Bad GOD.
You are viewing the Concept of GOD as something finite,
something we can measure.
Sir, Science can't even explain a Thought.
It uses Electricity and Magnetism, but has never seen,
much less fully understood either one.
To view Death as the Opposite of Life is to be ignorant of the fact that
Death cannot exist as a Substantive Thing.
Death is Not the Opposite of Life: just the Absence of it.
Now tell me, Professor, do you teach your Students that they evolved
from a Monkey?
Professor : If you are referring to the Natural Evolutionary Process,
yes, of course, I do.
Student : Have you ever observed Evolution with your own eyes, sir?
( The Professor shakes his head with a Smile, beginning to realize where the Argument is going )
Student : Since no one has ever observed the Process of Evolution at work and
Cannot even prove that this Process is an On - Going Endeavor,
Are you not teaching your Opinion, sir?
Are you not a Scientist but a Preacher?
( The Class is in Uproar )
Student : Is there anyone in the Class who has ever seen the Professor's Brain?
( The Class breaks out into Laughter )
Student : Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor's Brain, Felt it, touched or Smelt it? . . .
No one appears to have done so.
So, according to the Established Rules of Empirical, Stable,
Demonstrable Protocol, Science says that you have No Brain, sir.
With all due respect, sir, how do we then Trust your Lectures, sir?
(The Room is Silent. The Professor stares at the Student, his face unfathomable.)
Professor : I guess you'll have to take them on Faith, son.
Student : That is it sir . . .
The Link between Man & GOD is FAITH.
That is all that Keeps Things Moving & Alive.
NB:
I believe you have enjoyed the Conversation . . . and if so . . .
You'll probably want your Friends / Colleagues to enjoy the same . . . won't you?
Forward them to Increase their Knowledge . . . or FAITH.
It turned out later that the student is ALBERT EINSTEIN .
An Atheist Professor of Philosophy speaks to his Class on the Problem Science has with GOD, the ALMIGHTY.
He asks one of his New Christian Students to stand and . . .
Professor : You are a Christian, aren't you, son ?
Student : Yes, sir.
Professor : So you Believe in GOD ?
Student : Absolutely, sir.
Professor : Is GOD Good ?
Student : Sure.
Professor : Is GOD ALL - POWERFUL ?
Student : Yes.
Professor : My Brother died of Cancer even though he Prayed to GOD to Heal him.
Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill.
But GOD didn't.
How is this GOD good then? Hmm?
( Student is silent )
Professor : You can't answer, can you ?
Let's start again, Young Fella.
Is GOD Good?
Student : Yes.
Professor : Is Satan good ?
Student : No.
Professor : Where does Satan come from ?
Student : From . . . GOD . . .
Professor : That's right.
Tell me son, is there evil in this World?
Student : Yes.
Professor : Evil is everywhere, isn't it ?
And GOD did make everything. Correct?
Student : Yes.
Professor : So who created evil ?
(Student does not answer)
Professor : Is there Sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness?
All these terrible things exist in the World, don't they?
Student : Yes, sir.
Professor : So, who Created them ?
( Student has no answer )
Professor : Science says you have 5 Senses you use to Identify and Observe the World around you.
Tell me, son . . . Have you ever Seen GOD?
Student : No, sir.
Professor : Tell us if you have ever Heard your GOD?
Student : No , sir.
Professor : Have you ever Felt your GOD, Tasted your GOD, Smelt your GOD?
Have you ever had any Sensory Perception of GOD for that matter?
Student : No, sir. I'm afraid I haven't.
Professor : Yet you still Believe in HIM?
Student : Yes.
Professor : According to Empirical, Testable, Demonstrable Protocol, Science says your GOD doesn't exist.
What do you say to that, son?
Student : Nothing. I only have my Faith.
Professor : Yes, Faith. And that is the Problem Science has.
Student : Professor, is there such a thing as Heat?
Professor : Yes.
Student : And is there such a thing as Cold?
Professor : Yes.
Student : No sir. There isn't..
( The Lecture Theatre becomes very quiet with this turn of events )
Student : Sir, you can have Lots of Heat, even More Heat, Superheat, Mega Heat,
White Heat, a Little Heat or No Heat...
But we don't have anything called Cold.
We can hit 458 Degrees below Zero which is No Heat,
but we can't go any further after that.
There is no such thing as Cold.
Cold is only a Word we use to describe the Absence of Heat.
We cannot Measure Cold.
Heat is Energy.
Cold is Not the Opposite of Heat, sir, just the Absence of it.
( There is Pin - Drop Silence in the Lecture Theatre )
Student : What about Darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as Darkness?
Professor : Yes. What is Night if there isn't Darkness?
Student : You're wrong again, sir..
Darkness is the Absence of Something�K
You can have Low Light, Normal Light, Bright Light, Flashing Light . . .
But if you have No Light constantly, you have nothing and its called
Darkness, isn't it? In reality, Darkness isn't.
If it is, were you would be able to make Darkness Darker, wouldn't you?
Professor : So what is the point you are making, Young Man ?
Student : Sir, my point is your Philosophical Premise is flawed.
Professor : Flawed ? Can you explain how?
Student : Sir, you are working on the Premise of Duality.
You argue there is Life and then there is Death,
a Good GOD and a Bad GOD.
You are viewing the Concept of GOD as something finite,
something we can measure.
Sir, Science can't even explain a Thought.
It uses Electricity and Magnetism, but has never seen,
much less fully understood either one.
To view Death as the Opposite of Life is to be ignorant of the fact that
Death cannot exist as a Substantive Thing.
Death is Not the Opposite of Life: just the Absence of it.
Now tell me, Professor, do you teach your Students that they evolved
from a Monkey?
Professor : If you are referring to the Natural Evolutionary Process,
yes, of course, I do.
Student : Have you ever observed Evolution with your own eyes, sir?
( The Professor shakes his head with a Smile, beginning to realize where the Argument is going )
Student : Since no one has ever observed the Process of Evolution at work and
Cannot even prove that this Process is an On - Going Endeavor,
Are you not teaching your Opinion, sir?
Are you not a Scientist but a Preacher?
( The Class is in Uproar )
Student : Is there anyone in the Class who has ever seen the Professor's Brain?
( The Class breaks out into Laughter )
Student : Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor's Brain, Felt it, touched or Smelt it? . . .
No one appears to have done so.
So, according to the Established Rules of Empirical, Stable,
Demonstrable Protocol, Science says that you have No Brain, sir.
With all due respect, sir, how do we then Trust your Lectures, sir?
(The Room is Silent. The Professor stares at the Student, his face unfathomable.)
Professor : I guess you'll have to take them on Faith, son.
Student : That is it sir . . .
The Link between Man & GOD is FAITH.
That is all that Keeps Things Moving & Alive.
NB:
I believe you have enjoyed the Conversation . . . and if so . . .
You'll probably want your Friends / Colleagues to enjoy the same . . . won't you?
Forward them to Increase their Knowledge . . . or FAITH.
It turned out later that the student is ALBERT EINSTEIN .
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
Punching Bag.
I must say, it's really been a while since I've last updated my blog!
Oh...how 4th year life is being a bitch to me!!! (Yep! I know...great opening statement)
Of course, there's the usual pressure in school...only that it's been multiplied 100x!!! No, I'm not exaggerating! Unfortunate things have been happening to me lately. Apart from the great decline of my grades, MY LAPTOP CRASHED! Yeah, I've been fuming about that for quite a while...and I simply wouldn't get over it! I mean, my FUTURE is in there! By future, I meant my Admissions Essay. Well, why not make a new one?
........Uh hello?!....Writing an essay isn't as easy as you think. Let alone one which your future depends upon! I simply couldn't write a good...or impressive one if I'm not inspired...which, I certainly am not feeling right now with all the TORTURE!!!!
ahahaha.
I did mention in my essay that I don't give up. Sure, I may not be perfect and I may not be the smartest but, what I do have is determination. hahaha. I do hope that still applies to me now...haha of course it does! haha........I think. Sure, my grades are lower than the temperature in Antarctica but it isn't all that matters right?...hahaha ( here I go with the pep talk)....Yeah, the entrance exam is the 70% basis for acceptance . Hoo yeah...
Why do I feel myself degrading every minus one I get in my tests? They say people learn by making mistakes but, I certainly CANNOT afford any more mistakes unless I want risk of failing. I feel so embarassed with my performance in school nowadays, seeing that I'm in this so-called "star class". It's upsetting to see my scores being average....or even below that. Don't get me wrong. I don't slack off and I do work VERY HARD. I study. I listen...but why does it have to come out so hard for me?
Ack. This wouldn't matter to me before...now, it's different and I'm sure the reasons are quite obvious right? Seriously, how could any self-respecting senior not care?
I should really pull myself together before I start slitting my wrists......haha.
Oh...how 4th year life is being a bitch to me!!! (Yep! I know...great opening statement)
Of course, there's the usual pressure in school...only that it's been multiplied 100x!!! No, I'm not exaggerating! Unfortunate things have been happening to me lately. Apart from the great decline of my grades, MY LAPTOP CRASHED! Yeah, I've been fuming about that for quite a while...and I simply wouldn't get over it! I mean, my FUTURE is in there! By future, I meant my Admissions Essay. Well, why not make a new one?
........Uh hello?!....Writing an essay isn't as easy as you think. Let alone one which your future depends upon! I simply couldn't write a good...or impressive one if I'm not inspired...which, I certainly am not feeling right now with all the TORTURE!!!!
ahahaha.
I did mention in my essay that I don't give up. Sure, I may not be perfect and I may not be the smartest but, what I do have is determination. hahaha. I do hope that still applies to me now...haha of course it does! haha........I think. Sure, my grades are lower than the temperature in Antarctica but it isn't all that matters right?...hahaha ( here I go with the pep talk)....Yeah, the entrance exam is the 70% basis for acceptance . Hoo yeah...
Why do I feel myself degrading every minus one I get in my tests? They say people learn by making mistakes but, I certainly CANNOT afford any more mistakes unless I want risk of failing. I feel so embarassed with my performance in school nowadays, seeing that I'm in this so-called "star class". It's upsetting to see my scores being average....or even below that. Don't get me wrong. I don't slack off and I do work VERY HARD. I study. I listen...but why does it have to come out so hard for me?
Ack. This wouldn't matter to me before...now, it's different and I'm sure the reasons are quite obvious right? Seriously, how could any self-respecting senior not care?
I should really pull myself together before I start slitting my wrists......haha.
Saturday, July 4, 2009
The Fever Strikes. *hoh noh!!!*
Present Condition....
Stifling my sneezes, I'm typing this blog to escape from reality even for just a few minutes.
1-2-3 ACHOOOO! *wipes nose* I knew that it's bound to happen. *sniffs*
Great, I'm sick...again. Gahd. I think I'm coming up with a case of H1N1. Kidding aside, I just have a flu. No need to worry. I just finished the last bits of my super sugay "otap" with some sugary crystals lingering in my mouth. Ehgahd. I want more...but yeah, I'm not allowed to eat much for now.
At around 6 P.M.....
Waking up from my weird dream about some crazy cosplayers attacking someone, I realized I still have to make my head hurt more by reading about Adam Smith. Crap. His economic theories and what not is making my head throb and my nose bleed. I don't see why Katrina is so fascinated with him. Of course, I didn't do my work just yet. I just has to watch this show entitled, "Nasaan ka Maruja"...did I get that right? Of course, it was quite lame for me. Also, someone turned on the t.v. in my room and I was too weak to turn it off. After that I get to hear about all the fuss about Michael Jackson. True, his death shocked me and that I had to find out by opening Yahoo in the computer lab with my teaching exclaiming behind my back saying, "Is that true?!". I also ended up thinking she heard what I said about something that I shouldn't be saying. Good thing was, she was talking about the Yahoo headline saying, The King of Pop is Dead. Also, my mouth gaped open as I read. Sad, I've been linked to him in grade school because I wore black shoes and white socks with ankle-lengthed black pants. Hey, I was a growing kid!
Rants...
How saaad. I didn't get to go out today...to GK, to the Casino, to dance class....not at all! In truth, I'm quite happy since I didn't want to go to GK today with all the work and me not feeling so well. I'm quite glad I didn't get to dance today since I know my body can't handle it. Come on, I couldn't even talk on the phone earlier that I had to ask my sister to make the call for me. Yep, I was too weak to even speak...*le gasp!*. Of course, I'm not too weak to type...haha typing is my forte after all! I'm just a bit sad that I didn't get to go the casino with yel...she said that there was free dinner!!!!!!!! *rolls like a pandesal in tears*
Despite having a bit more time to do work, I still didn't get to do any. Why? Number one, I still feel that I'm in no condition to do anything headache-inducing. Number two, lack of will-power. Number three...don't you get it?! I'm procrastinating!...and of course, I'm typing this blog.
So yeah, I haven't got much to say except that my throat hurts and I feel like I could just collapse in front of the laptop any minute now....
......Before any of that happens, I bid adieu!
Stifling my sneezes, I'm typing this blog to escape from reality even for just a few minutes.
1-2-3 ACHOOOO! *wipes nose* I knew that it's bound to happen. *sniffs*
Great, I'm sick...again. Gahd. I think I'm coming up with a case of H1N1. Kidding aside, I just have a flu. No need to worry. I just finished the last bits of my super sugay "otap" with some sugary crystals lingering in my mouth. Ehgahd. I want more...but yeah, I'm not allowed to eat much for now.
At around 6 P.M.....
Waking up from my weird dream about some crazy cosplayers attacking someone, I realized I still have to make my head hurt more by reading about Adam Smith. Crap. His economic theories and what not is making my head throb and my nose bleed. I don't see why Katrina is so fascinated with him. Of course, I didn't do my work just yet. I just has to watch this show entitled, "Nasaan ka Maruja"...did I get that right? Of course, it was quite lame for me. Also, someone turned on the t.v. in my room and I was too weak to turn it off. After that I get to hear about all the fuss about Michael Jackson. True, his death shocked me and that I had to find out by opening Yahoo in the computer lab with my teaching exclaiming behind my back saying, "Is that true?!". I also ended up thinking she heard what I said about something that I shouldn't be saying. Good thing was, she was talking about the Yahoo headline saying, The King of Pop is Dead. Also, my mouth gaped open as I read. Sad, I've been linked to him in grade school because I wore black shoes and white socks with ankle-lengthed black pants. Hey, I was a growing kid!
Rants...
How saaad. I didn't get to go out today...to GK, to the Casino, to dance class....not at all! In truth, I'm quite happy since I didn't want to go to GK today with all the work and me not feeling so well. I'm quite glad I didn't get to dance today since I know my body can't handle it. Come on, I couldn't even talk on the phone earlier that I had to ask my sister to make the call for me. Yep, I was too weak to even speak...*le gasp!*. Of course, I'm not too weak to type...haha typing is my forte after all! I'm just a bit sad that I didn't get to go the casino with yel...she said that there was free dinner!!!!!!!! *rolls like a pandesal in tears*
Despite having a bit more time to do work, I still didn't get to do any. Why? Number one, I still feel that I'm in no condition to do anything headache-inducing. Number two, lack of will-power. Number three...don't you get it?! I'm procrastinating!...and of course, I'm typing this blog.
So yeah, I haven't got much to say except that my throat hurts and I feel like I could just collapse in front of the laptop any minute now....
......Before any of that happens, I bid adieu!
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Bloody Sundaes.
dun. dun. dun....
It's that time of the week wherein I actually update my blog!...so buckle up your seat belts...or something...
Wow, this week was pretty full for me. Starting off with Monday where we had to dance in some Rotary event in L'Fisher. It was fun and we got free dinners...which was even better! Of course, let us not forget me saying stupid things at the stupidest of times....(one needs not mention what I said...) The downside to that was we also get to go home late, leaving us with less time for school and waking up as zombies the very next day. The rest of the week was pretty normal, until Thursday. The weekend is coming and so is another gig on Friday. We had to dance at some casino for a fashion show...which was fun...I think. hehe.
For some reason, I've been inexplicably happy and quite expecting to be seeing something these past few days. Suddenly just yesterday, I lost that inexplicable happiness. Perhaps it's actually better not to be reminded too much of the past. You know how much you'd like to be happy and eat a hot fudge sundae again, you simply can't. Why? It's because you know you know that eating a hot fudge would make you fat. Then again, you keep devouring on caramel sundae which would then again not change anything. I'm simply not doing anything useful. Aahh...the ambiguousity about sundaes!
Sunday, June 21, 2009
Poverty is Depressing.
While strolling around a mall with my mom, a total stranger carrying a baby in her arms was waving at us. She called my mom "tita" and all I did was just stare, wondering why would a total stranger call my mom that. Then it hit me, I really did know this person. She's a distant relative of mine. Apparently, we spent a few minutes chatting up a bit. She was gushing about how I've grown and how long a time we all haven't seen each other. True, the last time we saw each other was when I was in 5th grade. She was fifteen then and I was probably around ten or eleven. My mom couldn't help but say how terrible she looked. Actually she did look quite worn out and rather old. It was a far cry from the way she looked years ago, healthy and quite pretty.
My eyes soon fell on the baby she was holding. She must have guessed what we were thinking and explained that it is her child. She actually got married and got a job as maid in the same neighborhood we are in. All I could say was, "Oh".
Learning that did make me quite upset. That relative and I were quite close back then and it is quite depressing for me to learn of her condition. She is definitely far too young to get married at 19 and work as a mere maid when she should still be in school. Sadder still, in that side of our family, people are quite lax about education and just consider being a maid an easy way out. I must admit, she may have not been the smartest but I still couldn't believe why anyone would settle for anything less. She even mentioned that there seems to be no hope for her, considering what she is and all. People shouldn't be discouraged of exceling because of "what they are". It isn't right to just throw it all like that.
I now know that if you settle for less, you get less but if you settle for more, you get more.
Had she studied and graduated, she could have gotten a decent job and lived her life differently. I feel so sad for this relative of mine since I know that she could have done more.
My eyes soon fell on the baby she was holding. She must have guessed what we were thinking and explained that it is her child. She actually got married and got a job as maid in the same neighborhood we are in. All I could say was, "Oh".
Learning that did make me quite upset. That relative and I were quite close back then and it is quite depressing for me to learn of her condition. She is definitely far too young to get married at 19 and work as a mere maid when she should still be in school. Sadder still, in that side of our family, people are quite lax about education and just consider being a maid an easy way out. I must admit, she may have not been the smartest but I still couldn't believe why anyone would settle for anything less. She even mentioned that there seems to be no hope for her, considering what she is and all. People shouldn't be discouraged of exceling because of "what they are". It isn't right to just throw it all like that.
I now know that if you settle for less, you get less but if you settle for more, you get more.
Had she studied and graduated, she could have gotten a decent job and lived her life differently. I feel so sad for this relative of mine since I know that she could have done more.
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
I'm getting that good day.
Wow. Second day of school and I'm effin late. Ha. Well, I had to take my little brother on his first day of school to his classroom. I know, that shouldn't be a reason to be late since we should have gone earlier. Mrs. Lopez says that this is alarming and very much disturbing. I just hope I don't have more lates to come since my conduct would be paying the price!!!!........
Which leads me to our Economics teacher saying, "There's no such thing as free lunch." Meaning, everything we do has a consequence, be it good or bad. So yeah, ganoon nga eh. Nothing in this world is free. May bayad. In short, Sacrifice. Huo na ah. You can't have it all.
Ehgahd...I'm typing one saying after another. Well, all this college preparation and applications are getting me quite hyped up! I feel pressured to do well. Sometimes, I have doubts of my capabilities. Ugh. Basta...What the mind can think, the body can do! haha You can do it Ning!
Why does 4th year have to mean so much that I must never ever fail? (of course I know that very well) hehe...The other years didn't really mean much to me. Whatever...Failure is not an option! So yeash......ganoon nga.
(again...I'm typing one saying after another....)
Now, I bid Adieu.
Which leads me to our Economics teacher saying, "There's no such thing as free lunch." Meaning, everything we do has a consequence, be it good or bad. So yeah, ganoon nga eh. Nothing in this world is free. May bayad. In short, Sacrifice. Huo na ah. You can't have it all.
Ehgahd...I'm typing one saying after another. Well, all this college preparation and applications are getting me quite hyped up! I feel pressured to do well. Sometimes, I have doubts of my capabilities. Ugh. Basta...What the mind can think, the body can do! haha You can do it Ning!
Why does 4th year have to mean so much that I must never ever fail? (of course I know that very well) hehe...The other years didn't really mean much to me. Whatever...Failure is not an option! So yeash......ganoon nga.
(again...I'm typing one saying after another....)
Now, I bid Adieu.
Sunday, June 7, 2009
Things are blue in school.
Okay, so this would have to be my official school-blues blog. How sad. I simply could not believe school is well...basically right in front of us. I could not deny the fact that it's coming this Tuesday and that I still didn't get to re-adjust my body clock. Oh poor me. *sobs*
The big question for me is, Am I ready to face the horrors of homeworks and quizzes?...more importantly...pressure to excel? Damnit. Screw this whole making your mark thing. It's quite sad really. After years of just getting by and just being there, you suddenly have to do something for yourself. Ah, the pressure. It's hard to do well when you're only you.
We have to do exceptionally well this year since we're graduating and stuff. High grades and activities are a must if you want to get accepted into the best colleges and even snag a scholarship. haha. Seems like we're undergoing what Blair's been through in Gossip Girl. Getting into Yale and everything...how funny and so true.
Then again, grades aren't everything. Well, Imma go play poker now!
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The big question for me is, Am I ready to face the horrors of homeworks and quizzes?...more importantly...pressure to excel? Damnit. Screw this whole making your mark thing. It's quite sad really. After years of just getting by and just being there, you suddenly have to do something for yourself. Ah, the pressure. It's hard to do well when you're only you.
We have to do exceptionally well this year since we're graduating and stuff. High grades and activities are a must if you want to get accepted into the best colleges and even snag a scholarship. haha. Seems like we're undergoing what Blair's been through in Gossip Girl. Getting into Yale and everything...how funny and so true.
Then again, grades aren't everything. Well, Imma go play poker now!
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Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Harder Than It Looks.
Rules:
It's harder than it looks! Copy to your own note, erase my answers, enter yours, and tag twenty people.USE THE FIRST LETTER OF YOUR NAME to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real...nothing made up! If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question.
1. What is your name : Leonila
2. A four Letter Word : Love...hehe
3. A boy's Name : Lyzander
4. A girl's Name : Lily
5. An occupation : Lawyer!
6. A color : Lavender
7. Something you'll wear : Leggings
9. A food : Lasagna!
10. Something found in the bathroom: Lotion!
11. A place : Luzon!
12. A reason for being late : Letting myself get kidnapped!
13. Something you'd shout : LOSER!
14. A movie title : Lover's in Paris.....hehe
15. Something you drink : Lemon juice!
16. A brand : Levi's......hehe
17. An animal : Lizard!
18. A street name : Lacson Street....hehe
19. A type of car : Little car........hehe
20. The title of a song : Little Things-Colbie Caillat......wehehehe
*crap*
I SURVIVED!!!!
It's harder than it looks! Copy to your own note, erase my answers, enter yours, and tag twenty people.USE THE FIRST LETTER OF YOUR NAME to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real...nothing made up! If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question.
1. What is your name : Leonila
2. A four Letter Word : Love...hehe
3. A boy's Name : Lyzander
4. A girl's Name : Lily
5. An occupation : Lawyer!
6. A color : Lavender
7. Something you'll wear : Leggings
9. A food : Lasagna!
10. Something found in the bathroom: Lotion!
11. A place : Luzon!
12. A reason for being late : Letting myself get kidnapped!
13. Something you'd shout : LOSER!
14. A movie title : Lover's in Paris.....hehe
15. Something you drink : Lemon juice!
16. A brand : Levi's......hehe
17. An animal : Lizard!
18. A street name : Lacson Street....hehe
19. A type of car : Little car........hehe
20. The title of a song : Little Things-Colbie Caillat......wehehehe
*crap*
I SURVIVED!!!!
Monday, June 1, 2009
Summer Farewell
So yeah, this is my official goodbye summer blog for 2009. I think I deleted my farewell for summer 2008 along with all my other blogs from the errrm past? Whatever, I'm not really sure how to put it so that's that. Each year, I write a blog about summer...how I spent it...my hates...my likes...my discoveries...whatever...as long as it's part of my summer!
My summer started with making pawasak with two of my buddies, Yel and Kat. We did senseless things and celebrated other people's graduation for them...approximately 3 times. During Holy Week, my family and I got to go to Hong Kong for a vacation. There, I got to eat chinese food everyday....and it's sickening. I also realized how I hate chinese people...*evil grin*.
When we got back home, it was just in time for the start of our MMB summer workshop. So yeah, same old routine, dance classes everyday. Hey, I'm not complaining. It's really great actually! Like last year, I'm usually found hanging out in MMB. The only difference was that I'm not found always wearing tights and sweet-talking kids since I'm not assisting anymore, which is quite sad. Well hey, I get more free time and I get to eat dirty ice-cream and fishballs! During my summer in MMB, I enjoyed hanging out with the so-called "children". Playing cards certainly became one of our favorite pastimes aside from dancing.
This summer wasn't like any other...of course. It was quite busy especially with the culminating. Honestly, it could even be stressful that you forget to enjoy dancing. How sad right? So sad it even made me lose concentration. It's sad for me to think that this could even be the last summer show I'd be doing since I wouldn't be here next year. Well, we do have our ups and downs. Setting the bad aside, I really did have fun this summer! Especially the times I spent being with friends and dancing! How time flies, I didn't even notice summer IS over.
All good things do come to an end. Although I must say, my summer wasn't that happy and it certainly wasn't the best. I even feel like I've wasted it or something...or it could just be that time flies so fast that I didn't realize I did so much already. What's with summer anyway? It's just like any time of the year and the only thing is that summer doesn't have school. So yeah...I should probably go slit my wrists somewhere...or something. Kidding of course...well that's my summer blog.
My summer started with making pawasak with two of my buddies, Yel and Kat. We did senseless things and celebrated other people's graduation for them...approximately 3 times. During Holy Week, my family and I got to go to Hong Kong for a vacation. There, I got to eat chinese food everyday....and it's sickening. I also realized how I hate chinese people...*evil grin*.
When we got back home, it was just in time for the start of our MMB summer workshop. So yeah, same old routine, dance classes everyday. Hey, I'm not complaining. It's really great actually! Like last year, I'm usually found hanging out in MMB. The only difference was that I'm not found always wearing tights and sweet-talking kids since I'm not assisting anymore, which is quite sad. Well hey, I get more free time and I get to eat dirty ice-cream and fishballs! During my summer in MMB, I enjoyed hanging out with the so-called "children". Playing cards certainly became one of our favorite pastimes aside from dancing.
This summer wasn't like any other...of course. It was quite busy especially with the culminating. Honestly, it could even be stressful that you forget to enjoy dancing. How sad right? So sad it even made me lose concentration. It's sad for me to think that this could even be the last summer show I'd be doing since I wouldn't be here next year. Well, we do have our ups and downs. Setting the bad aside, I really did have fun this summer! Especially the times I spent being with friends and dancing! How time flies, I didn't even notice summer IS over.
All good things do come to an end. Although I must say, my summer wasn't that happy and it certainly wasn't the best. I even feel like I've wasted it or something...or it could just be that time flies so fast that I didn't realize I did so much already. What's with summer anyway? It's just like any time of the year and the only thing is that summer doesn't have school. So yeah...I should probably go slit my wrists somewhere...or something. Kidding of course...well that's my summer blog.
Monday, May 25, 2009
For What it's Worth.
MMB School of Dance
In a tricycle
Love the goats
Off to the country side
Having dinner (hahaha my crush!)shhhh....
Dinner at Mang Inasal
Dressing room hassles!
The Show! All Nite Don't Stop!
Last May 24....
We had our Culminating Show
After the show...We ate at Mang Inasal...yet again...
The very next day, we headed off to Ma-ao **special thanks to the Ababao family!**
It was FUN! We even had to commute home with a windshield free tricycle and a public bus!....*le gasp*...I know.....hahahaha....I even swallowed flies (take note: windshield free)
In the 2 hour bus ride back to the city, we were all too congested and some had vodka in a moving and [very bumpy] bus. Humorous...
It's sad how this day didn't get to last..........
Saturday, May 16, 2009
Pictures are Remainders of the Past
1. A picture of you in your room
4. A picture of you very drunk
11. A picture of you and a team or club you're in
YFC kmi!!!
13. A picture of you showing off a new haircut
14. A picture of you truly being yourself
15. Your most recent picture
Of course, the one on the right...xD
16. A picture of you being absolutely ridiculous
18. A picture of time in your life that's over, but you wish it hasn't
23. A picture of you that you had no idea was being taken
25. A picture of you in a fashion "DONT"
me!!!! aaah!
26. A picture of you in a swimsuit - whether you love it or loathe it
28. A picture of yourself that you hate
I was very sick here and my eyes were very red. It was during the Intrams...and I had to leave during our cheering!!!
29. A picture of you with someone you love
Bruha ni xa pero palangga ko na! hahaha
30. A picture of how you'd like the world to see you
31. A picture that describes how you'd like to spend everyday
32. A picture of a time when everything was changing
33. A picture that makes your heart hurt
34. A picture that makes your heart smile
Happy and Carefree!!!!
35. A picture of one of the best times of your life
Just dancing...sadly...it may not last.
webbie pic...hehe
2. A picture of you posing with someone you don't actually like
none! Ngaa ma pa pic mn ko beh cya...hmmph.
3. A picture with a former crush
current pwd?...
4. A picture of you very drunk
So far, I never tried getting
VERY DRUNK. hehe :P
5. A picture of you with a parent or two
6. A picture of you on your birthday
7. A picture of you from your younger years
8. A picture of you in one of your favorite outfits
9. A picture of you making a goofy face at the camera
10. A picture you might have edited
11. A picture of you and a team or club you're in
YFC kmi!!!
12. A picture of a night you regret
13. A picture of you showing off a new haircut
14. A picture of you truly being yourself
Being my cra15. Your most recent picture
Of course, the one on the right...xD16. A picture of you being absolutely ridiculous
17. A picture you're tagged in on facebook that you aren't actually in
I'm tagged because I'm in that pic...hehe
18. A picture of time in your life that's over, but you wish it hasn't
After Recital, things were very different then. It was great.
19. A picture of a time in your life that's over, and you couldn't be more thankful that it is
Good20. A picture with your oldest friend
Gr.4 bu21. A picture with your newest friend
N/A
22. A picture of you when you were anything but happy... even if you were smiling and did your best to hide it
23. A picture of you that you had no idea was being taken
24. A picture of you when you were a different person than you are now
This was a year and a half ago...imagine how a year could change you...
25. A picture of you in a fashion "DONT"
me!!!! aaah!
26. A picture of you in a swimsuit - whether you love it or loathe it
Hmm...dayaon ko...may shirt pa! hahaha. LOVE IT!
27. A picture of you taking a shot / chugging a beer / downing some sort of mixed drink
28. A picture of yourself that you hate
I was very sick here and my eyes were very red. It was during the Intrams...and I had to leave during our cheering!!!
29. A picture of you with someone you love
Bruha ni xa pero palangga ko na! hahaha
30. A picture of how you'd like the world to see you
31. A picture that describes how you'd like to spend everyday
32. A picture of a time when everything was changing
33. A picture that makes your heart hurt
34. A picture that makes your heart smile
Happy and Carefree!!!!
35. A picture of one of the best times of your life
Just dancing...sadly...it may not last.
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
I could sew!
The original dress.
I found a vintage dress which belonged to my aunt. It was actually made by my late grandmother. To my dismay, it really couldn't fit me since my aunt was really tiny when she was younger. So, the mission was to make the dress fit. How? I had to recreate it...in a way...hehe. The thing is, I don't even know how to use a machine and yet, here I am tearing the dress apart, buying materials and actually trying to use the sewing machine. So yeah, I added the tulle, the lace...and everything! Result: GREAT! (No irony is used!) Who would have known that I could learn how to sew in like...a day. Actually, I finished the dress in four days. Lesson: Take chances and you could actually learn things! hehe
Working on it!
My progress so far....
...and finally....all my hardwork!
...and finally....all my hardwork!
Sunday, May 3, 2009
dancer.
Funny, Why do I always update my blogs at unholy hours?...
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Yep, this is the barre, the place where it all starts...I'm talking about warm-ups. hehe. For now, it seems like dancing IS my life. That's just for this summer though...when I don't have to think much about anything else.....I'll enjoy it while I still can! Oftentimes, I get upset about something then I usually turn to dance for some comfort. My idea of comfort is pushing myself to lift my leg at least a 160 degree arabesque and doing multiple turns without faltering, causing body pains and blisters. Yes, it's heaven for me (no sarcasm intended!). Although, dancing doesn't always make me feel good. I also feel insecure and upset because of it. For example, when I am not able to do the steps well or when I feel that I'm not as good as the others. It's pretty much hard not to compare yourself with other dancers. It is sad to forget about how much you love something when insecurities about yourself get in the way. Still, I pour ALL sorts of frustrations into dancing. Now, that's enough to make me feel better.
It's a dancer's life. We get very, very stressed out. Dancing is hard but you wouldn't really understand it unless you actually do it yourself.
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Yep, this is the barre, the place where it all starts...I'm talking about warm-ups. hehe. For now, it seems like dancing IS my life. That's just for this summer though...when I don't have to think much about anything else.....I'll enjoy it while I still can! Oftentimes, I get upset about something then I usually turn to dance for some comfort. My idea of comfort is pushing myself to lift my leg at least a 160 degree arabesque and doing multiple turns without faltering, causing body pains and blisters. Yes, it's heaven for me (no sarcasm intended!). Although, dancing doesn't always make me feel good. I also feel insecure and upset because of it. For example, when I am not able to do the steps well or when I feel that I'm not as good as the others. It's pretty much hard not to compare yourself with other dancers. It is sad to forget about how much you love something when insecurities about yourself get in the way. Still, I pour ALL sorts of frustrations into dancing. Now, that's enough to make me feel better.
It's a dancer's life. We get very, very stressed out. Dancing is hard but you wouldn't really understand it unless you actually do it yourself.
We don't always work hard and dance...we play cards too!
Saturday, May 2, 2009
I. Love. You.
haha. I certainly would love to share this! haha. Is this true? hmmm........I wonder what you think...
Thursday, April 30, 2009
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